A lot of people said when you had a prem baby, it makes you be a tougher mum ever. Mm..had to admit, but apart of that, i think that every mothers who's going thru the same experience will make sure the best for their baby. Like Pn rita said when i went to her shop to seek some advise regarding breastfeeding my prem baby, she said that it's good you have litres of milk compared to those who easily gave up when they had difficulties in bfeed their baby. It shows that you're strong. It needs courage to do so.. I smiled back at her and i said, i have to be strong for the baby, i dont know whether i'm strong enough to bare the situation but i do believe in God. He wont let me have this 'rare chances' to endure if He knows that i cant go thru it.
My director said, you're the chosen one who He gave the opportunity to feel so close to Him. I was shocked at first when he said so. He said when we declare our faith to Allah, He has the right to give us trials to test how far our iman/faith is. Those who simply have a 'straight line' in their lives wouldnt taste the beautiful part of iman.
Mm..as human, we tend to always make mistakes. But, once we repent and stop from doing the same wrongdoings, we will always be a better person and slaves of Allah.